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This past week I’ve been driving my very short commute to work without listening to the radio, I guess I got tired of hearing the same songs and not hearing the ones that resonate with me or my life, synchronicity and all I didn’t want to take any chances hearing the wrong message from the universe or not getting what it was trying to tell me. Should I ignore all the squashed possums along the road? I am getting better at directing my thoughts where they need to be, unfortunately sometimes circumstances throw me off balance for days. I have grown so accustomed to my inner light burning warm and bright that I rebel against the partial fog of my past any time that it envelops me, I am like a salmon caught on a fishing line, I just swim strongly the other way.. I love the feeling of freedom I get from being who I truly am. That freedom is so important to me that I found the strength and the words for a very hard but needed conversation that was past due. After everything that has happened in my personal relationship I still felt a sense of guilt about giving up on my marriage. We seem to be moving on two different paths, I will no longer give up mine to follow his. As time passes it gets easier for me to stand my grounds, my path has become clearer, I now know that I can stand on my own two feet and am no longer afraid to do so. The timing is right, I am truly ready to start the next chapter of my life.

This morning when I got in the car I put both my hands on the wheel and relaxed. As I was driving down the road, joy finally burst out, my hand reached out to turn on the radio, I was busy enjoying the blue sky so didn’t pay full attention to the lyrics something about going down the road to destruction, but my brain was ready for it and changed the lyrics for me to: I am going down the road to the rest of my life. After that I decided I would check the six stations that are programmed those include the two my teen has programmed for when she drives the car or rides with me. I raised the volume and sang the chorus or what I like to call my one liners. She is the best girlfriend became SHE IS THE BEST GIRL, I piled on the compliments too. Will the real slim shady please stand up became will the real …add name here… made my day. It’s raining men (nope, clear blue sky) but such a catchy fun song to sing along to.

Being alone in the car felt so good, it’s nice to be able to belt out and move your body, tap your hands and listen to whatever you want. I always have to wait to really start my joyfulness until I’ve dropped my daughter off at the bus stop, she is not a morning person and doesn’t always appreciate my morning happiness. Sometimes I won’t let her change the station, when Too sexy came on I had to sing too sexy for my car, too sexy for my purse, too sexy for my breakfast, etc.. I was on a roll but she turned it off the minute we drove up to the drop off.  Must be my singing.

Sometimes the right song comes on and you don’t need to change the lyrics, my song for the week? Unstoppable by Sia. Hope you find your song this week or the lyrics that resonate with you!